Missing my baobao ...

Bb

I'm missing you so much

Don't know why

The feeling is very strong

Don't know how to express my feeling

I just know I'm missing you badly

Hope to lay on your shoulder

Hope to being hugging in your body tightly

and you sayang sayang my head gently

No need to talk anything

Just enjoy being hugging by you

Naturally

Our hearts are connecting to

each other's

How I wish you are here sayang me

I'm missing you badly

My beloved baobao

I'm loving you deeply ...

Streamyx Night ...

好久没有用streamyx上网了。。。感觉比用maxis broadband好太多了。。。

突然想起了要update blog了，就即刻把blog打开了。。。

bb，我看到了你更新的blog了。。。我一点都没有怪bb啦。。。

我也了解到bb在新加坡的情况。。。除了interview，大致上bb都没有出门的。。。

再说，bb也烦着要找工。。。哪有时间去逛街呢。。。

bb并不需要特地去买礼物了。。。都过了。。。

要买也等到明年才买吧。。。只要bb记得我们之间的承诺就够了。。。

bb，我爱你。。。我永远爱你。。。

My bb's birthday ...

Today is your birthday

I'm so sorry

because I couldn't celebrate with you

as I'm in S'pore

and you are in M'sia

We celebrated it together

in the past 2years

missing the time so much

Last week went to Genting

wanted to buy a cake to celebrate for you

but you refuse it

as you don't like to eat cake

I'm really sorry couldn't celebrate for you

was thinking to buy you

a new wallet

since you had been using the current one

for 2years already

but I'm really totally didn't

go out shopping in the period of

I'm looking for job in S'pore

I hope I could get a job asap

so that I could have time and money

to shop for your present

hehehehehe ...

I hope

we would have chance to celebrate

our every birthday together

in the future ever

Lastly,

wishing my red burn pig

HaPpy biRthDay

and woNderFul yeAr ahead!!!

I Love You Forever And Ever My Beloved Bb !!!

Cute cute icon drawed by my bb

like it so much !!!

I duno how to draw nicely

so,

hope to re-give bb this one

to express what am I thinking to bb

hehehhee ...

顺其自然 。。。

昨晚你说去和朋友打game

一点多sms你都没回复

到底是睡着了

还是还没回房？

一直到早上

到现在

一整天了

一点消息都没有

不可能完全没看到讯息吧？？？

不想去做猜测

也不想去担心

已经不想再有两年前的无知了

两年前的担心完全是多余

两年前就应该怀疑再做猜测

今时今日

同时间，同地点，同人物

我

不想再白担心

乱猜测

任何该发生的

就顺其自然吧。。。

回忆又再次出现!!!

4 June 2010

回忆又再次出现了... 美好的回忆是真的美好吗? 为什么我所体验到的美好回忆会让我那么的苦呢?

在两个星期前, 她还在我身边... 每天晚上我们都一起去吃晚餐, 吃完晚餐就到giant去逛逛...不管有没有东西要买, 就是要去逛... 目的就是不想和她分开... 逛完了giant就回到学校去逛校园了,也就是所谓的nilai walk... 原本我也很懒惰要walk的...可是walk多了, 就觉得原来和对的人一起walk, 感觉是那么开心的... 久而久之, 我也爱上和她nilai walk了...可是往往开心的日子就是过的特别快... 现在我想和她nilai walk都很难了... 甚至可以说是不可能了...

今天晚上, 我一个人走着平时和她nilai walk的那段路往食堂走去... 一路上, 我的脑海里都是和她手牵手逛校园的情景... 当我想起这些开心又美好的回忆时, 我应该开心的, 不是吗? 可是为什么我的心情却那么的沉重呢? 当时那一刻我真的很想再一次牵着她的手再次走过这段路... 但是这都只能想想而已了...

最近病了, 朋友都笑我说是相思病... 虽然我知道不是... 但是我对她的思念是确实有的... 我真的很想知道到底思念一个人的心情要怎样才能平复下来呢? 要用多长的时间呢?

不知道.............

豬病了。。。

我的紅燒豬

生病了！！！

傷風

對他是家常便飯

現在又來發燒

咳嗽也報到！！！

從沒見過ah b咳嗽

這次做么醬嚴重的

剛才還講全身一直發抖

搞到我都不知道可以怎樣

又不懂有什么藥可以吃

很失敗啊！！！

只能干緊張

你又不聽話

病到醬還要去上課

打你pet pet！！！

bb

記得要和多多多多水哦

單眼佬涼茶一定要泡來喝

不要一直吹冷氣

汗都沒辦法出來

一直guk在身體里

超不好的！！！

愿主保佑

我的紅燒豬

快快從病中痊愈

身體健健康康

生龍活“豬”

kekekekkekee。。。

Take good care of youself

my beloved baby

kekekekekke

bb
bb is sleeping like a pig pig now
i have sleep yet
my jiefu went dabao McD
heheehee ...

Remind me everytime eating McD with bb
i miss you
my dearest bb

God bless
flu is going away from my bb
i love you bb ...

快熟面之恋。。。

bb

我刚煮好快熟面

突然好想念bb

以前每次都是你煮给我的

而且肯定加很多很多料

有香肠，各式各样的丸

丰富得没得顶！！！

而现在

我在冰箱找到香肠

可是剩三条

我惟有煮一条

其他的留给姐夫

每次吃时

你都会拿你的料给我

因为你知道我超爱香肠！！

可是现在我煮一条

就只有一条好吃

没得多。。。:(

bb

我好想念你哦。。。

美好的回忆也会带来难过得心情...

30 May 2010, 星期天

在pj住了两天, 和朋友去打球, 喝茶, 聊天... 真的很开心... 也许在那段时间里, 不开心的事情都放下来了, 所以就觉得心情放松了许多...

今天下午又回到了这个储存着许多我和她的回忆的地方, 心情自然就变得重了起来... 看到校园四周围都会联想起很多很多我和她的一点一滴...

当我背着背包和手提电脑上到房间, 第一件想起的事情就是以后的日子里, 她都不会在这间房间里面出现了... 在这间房间里面曾经有她的笑声也有哭声... 虽然已经成为过去, 但是和她在这房间的一点一滴每天都会出现在我的脑海里...

思念一个人的时间过的特别慢... 睡了一觉起来才6点多... 起来看了三集Prison Break season 2终于等到了天黑, 八点多快要九点了... 肚子觉得有点饿了... 想去打包可是又懒惰... 最后只好煮快熟面和蘑菇汤当晚餐了... 本来煮快熟面和蘑菇汤是很快的, 但是我却觉得时间好像停了下来似的... 在煮快熟面和蘑菇汤的整个过程中, 许许多多的回忆又来找我了... 以前煮快熟面时, 她最爱吃咖哩味了... 还有, 蘑菇汤呢就一定要加多些水... 因为她说这样才会比较多... 想回头, 她当时的脸蛋真的好可爱, 就好像一个天真无邪的小女孩吵着妈妈多煮一些汤的样子似的...

除了快熟面和蘑菇汤, 我也曾煮粥给她吃... 她说最爱吃我为她煮的粥了... 就算是aunty煮的她也是吃少许而已... 我记得我曾问过她为什么, 她说原因是因为我煮的粥里放了很多料... 哈哈... 其实材料也是那几种, 红萝卜, 马铃薯, 皮蛋和金针菇... 只不过是马铃薯的分量比较多而已... 那时因为她很爱吃马铃薯, 所以就放多一些好让她能多吃一点... 每次看到她都把粥吃完, 真的很开心... 也许有些人觉得煮食应该是女生煮给男生吃的, 但是对我而言, 我觉得煮给我心爱的女生吃也是一种幸福... 看见她爱吃, 吃的开心, 很自然的我的心情也会变得很好... 就这样自然的, 一个美好的回忆就诞生了...

Ah b, 我实在太想念你了...

这一切一切的回忆永远都会留在我心里... 我希望我和她在未来的日子里能够创造更多美好的回忆...

最痛的并不是被利器所伤,而是看着你心爱的人开着车慢慢的离你而去...

26-05-2010

我相信这一天是我这一世人都不会忘记的一天...

今天当我从睡梦中醒过来后, 脑袋所想的第一件事情就是 "她" 今天要离开我了...

虽然这个所谓的 "离开" 并不是分手的意思, 而只是 "她" 要到另外一个国家去工作了... 但是这已

经够我受的了... 我和 "她" 在一起已经两年又六天了... 也就是说我们在一起736天了...

就在第736天的晚上, 我看着 "她" 开着车慢慢的离我远去...

在这一刻, 我的心真的好痛...

以前就常常听到身边的朋友说远距离念爱有多苦多不好受的, 当时的我听了都没什么感觉...

但是今天的我就完全明白这种所谓的苦和难受了...

这种感受真的一点也不好受...

虽然如此, 日子依然要过... 时间可不会因为我或你伤心而停下来...

所以现在我唯一能做的就是收拾好心情, 然后再努力把握时间做好我该做的事情了...

今天以后, 我就有更足够的时间来做自己的事情了...

希望以后的日子可以比平常过的快, 那我就能够快一些见到 "她" 了...

*Click Ctrl + A together and you will see something special ... :)

*** I Love To Yi Lan Forever & Ever ***

dEciSioN

Monday had threw my resignation letter looooo
Manager ask me to work until end of the month
at least can get full pay

After my 1night consideration
Tuesday morning I'm still
looking at my calendar
think and think and think

End up I direct close the calendar
telling myself

**********************************
MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING
BUT THE TIME LEFT TO SPEND
WITH YOU IS PRECIOUS
*********************************

Since there's not much time left for us
to spend together
I decided not to change my mind
last working day will be on 17th May 2010

Hope to spend our final week together
go dating
go celebrate our coming 2years anniversary
go have fun
go enjoy as much as we can
to create more our sweet memories !!!

3more working days
here we go !!!

一场欢喜一场空

今晚正要去吃晚餐时, ah b 在车告诉我说她已经把信交上去给她上司了。。。 但是上司却又把信还回给ah b了。。。还说等ah b 找到工了才辞职。。。我当时听了有喜也有悲。。。喜是因为ah b能够留下来多陪我多一些日子。。。悲是因为这样ah b就要多忍她那两面王上司多一些日子。。。

晚餐吃过了,giant也逛完了。。。就在正往去拿车的路上,　我在想ah b到底会不会明天就告诉她那两面王上司说她已经找到工了, 然后又再一次把辞职信交上去呢？就当我还在想啊想的时候，ah b 就突然把答案告诉了我。。。这就是所谓的心灵相通吗？也许是吧，可是又通不完。。。因为ah b 的答案是“我明天会再次丢信”。。。我当时听了真的整个脑袋都好像放空了似的。。。什么也想不到了。。。后来脑袋里才冒出这个句子：“ah b啊，这可不是我想要的答案啊”。。。

不过也算了吧。。。既然ah b那么不喜欢这份工作，那就让ah b辞职吧。。。只要ah b开心就好了。。。ah b，不管你的决定是什么，我都会支持你的。。。就勇敢的往你想要的方向走下去吧！！！我会永远的支持你。。。

Wishes to keep everything happened between us ...

This is my first time writing a blog ... well, the reason why i am writing this blog is because i wish to keep everything happened between us in our daily life ... I have a very strong feeling recently ... I know that you are going to quit your job here and moving out to Singapore ... As I told you that I won't stop you from going out to Singapore ... Cause this is your choice since you are still young and it is good for you to go out from Malaysia and have more experiences out there ... But I know that I will be missing you damn a lot after you leave me alone here ... By the way, I am worrying too ... I am worrying about your new life , your new job , your new friend , your new collegue , I am worrying your everything when you move to Singapore ... I don't know whether you can cope with everything new in Singapore or not ...

One more thing which make me feel bad is I know that we are not going to meet each other so often as we did in the past anymore ... It is possible for us to meet each other once in few months in the future ... Ah b , let me tell you one thing ... It might be very funny for you or even for other peoples ... But for me , it is not funny and I am serious about it and I do seriously meant it ... Well , the thing that I am going to tell you is my wishes for my coming 24 years old birthday ... My wish for 24 years old birthday is "I WISH THAT YOU CAN BE MY LAST GIRLFRIEND IN MY LIFE AND BE MY FIRST AND THE ONLY ONE WIFE IN MY LIFE". I seriously meant it ...

Well, maybe ... Just maybe ... Maybe you won't put your trust on me anymore ... Nevermind ... Because as what i told you , i meant it ... I said that I will look at pretty girl , but I won't think more than just have a look ... Cause everybody love beutiful things ... Just because I am a normal human , so it is normal to look at beutiful things , lady or sometimes even guy ... Just because they are beutiful , that's why I will take a look ... It is very normal ... I just wanna be honest with you ... I don't wanna keep any secret between us ... Because secret makes a gap between us ... However , I know that there was already a gap exist in between us along these time ... But I tried all my best to fill up the gap with my sincere action ... I don't know whether you had realize it or not ... But I am trying ... I am trying all the time ... until today ... until this second ... I am still trying to fill up the gap in between us ... I hope one day later , the gap will disappear and you can put back your trust on me ... That is because just like what people always said, "without trust, then there is no meaning to be couple". So , I will try my all best to gain back your trust on me ...

Another thing is about your attitude ... You always get angry just because of a very small matter ... Sometimes even I did nothing , you will still get angry on me ... Sometimes I really don't know what should I do to make you happy ... But now I know ... I know that I shouldn't blame on you ... That is because I know that is me who did something wrong and this matter bring a bad memory to you along these time ... So now I'm gonna pay back for what I had done in the past ... I will do so ... I do meant it ...

Lastly, I hope that this blog can full with our memory in the future and I hope that our memory in the future would be all good memory for us ... Hey TO YI LAN, before I end up my FIRST blog, I have 3 words which I wanted to tell you ... Well , I guess you knew which 3 words I wanted to tell you ... Yes , you are right ... The 3 words are I LOVE YOU ... But what about if I say that I have 6 words to tell you ? Can you still guess the correct answer ? haha ... But don't worry , you need not to guess which 6 words that I am going to tell you ... Because I am going to tell you on my own ... Well, the 6 words which I meant it and wanted to tell you is
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