Thursday, April 29, 2010

Wishes to keep everything happened between us ...

This is my first time writing a blog ... well, the reason why i am writing this blog is because i wish to keep everything happened between us in our daily life ... I have a very strong feeling recently ... I know that you are going to quit your job here and moving out to Singapore ... As I told you that I won't stop you from going out to Singapore ... Cause this is your choice since you are still young and it is good for you to go out from Malaysia and have more experiences out there ... But I know that I will be missing you damn a lot after you leave me alone here ... By the way, I am worrying too ... I am worrying about your new life , your new job , your new friend , your new collegue , I am worrying your everything when you move to Singapore ... I don't know whether you can cope with everything new in Singapore or not ...

One more thing which make me feel bad is I know that we are not going to meet each other so often as we did in the past anymore ... It is possible for us to meet each other once in few months in the future ... Ah b , let me tell you one thing ... It might be very funny for you or even for other peoples ... But for me , it is not funny and I am serious about it and I do seriously meant it ... Well , the thing that I am going to tell you is my wishes for my coming 24 years old birthday ... My wish for 24 years old birthday is "I WISH THAT YOU CAN BE MY LAST GIRLFRIEND IN MY LIFE AND BE MY FIRST AND THE ONLY ONE WIFE IN MY LIFE". I seriously meant it ...

Well, maybe ... Just maybe ... Maybe you won't put your trust on me anymore ... Nevermind ... Because as what i told you , i meant it ... I said that I will look at pretty girl , but I won't think more than just have a look ... Cause everybody love beutiful things ... Just because I am a normal human , so it is normal to look at beutiful things , lady or sometimes even guy ... Just because they are beutiful , that's why I will take a look ... It is very normal ... I just wanna be honest with you ... I don't wanna keep any secret between us ... Because secret makes a gap between us ... However , I know that there was already a gap exist in between us along these time ... But I tried all my best to fill up the gap with my sincere action ... I don't know whether you had realize it or not ... But I am trying ... I am trying all the time ... until today ... until this second ... I am still trying to fill up the gap in between us ... I hope one day later , the gap will disappear and you can put back your trust on me ... That is because just like what people always said, "without trust, then there is no meaning to be couple". So , I will try my all best to gain back your trust on me ...

Another thing is about your attitude ... You always get angry just because of a very small matter ... Sometimes even I did nothing , you will still get angry on me ... Sometimes I really don't know what should I do to make you happy ... But now I know ... I know that I shouldn't blame on you ... That is because I know that is me who did something wrong and this matter bring a bad memory to you along these time ... So now I'm gonna pay back for what I had done in the past ... I will do so ... I do meant it ...

Lastly, I hope that this blog can full with our memory in the future and I hope that our memory in the future would be all good memory for us ... Hey TO YI LAN, before I end up my FIRST blog, I have 3 words which I wanted to tell you ... Well , I guess you knew which 3 words I wanted to tell you ... Yes , you are right ... The 3 words are I LOVE YOU ... But what about if I say that I have 6 words to tell you ? Can you still guess the correct answer ? haha ... But don't worry , you need not to guess which 6 words that I am going to tell you ... Because I am going to tell you on my own ... Well, the 6 words which I meant it and wanted to tell you is
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"I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER" ...